Why don't you just let me down

So tell me what were you really looking for

Going undercover
Said you were a lover
Why don't you just let me down
When you're in your positions
I don't see inhibitions
The time has come to let your demons out

White Lights

Now she's forgiven the harms of her past
She'll take a message somewhere it will last
She fails where she fails but she's trying
And growing up fast

Echoes climbing back
What's this
Hit or miss attack
You missed it
She's got white lights on her face
From the bad days
That she just can't erase
And her sad eyes are replaced
With the new life in a beautiful place

Qdoba makes me happy

A statement like that is what makes men cry.

But I wanted to say a quick thing about qdoba. As much as I love it the Summer St. location is a little lacking in the work force. I mean they do a good job but I have two problems. One I think they didn't give me a free burrito when I was award one, although my fault too for not keeping track but they should of seen that I was due for one. The other is when I ask for a burrito they always ask what beans I want...easy enough, until 30 seconds later they ask me again.

This is why I love the Harvard one. Not only do I sort of get a kick from Harvard kids, I'm assuming they are harvard kids...young white college kids in harvard sq, making my burrito they are all pretty friendly and they have a few TVs as well. Good stuff.

I'm avoiding dan for a while. after saturday night of me "bailing" I figure it culd be the best to let some time pass. although I haven't talked to him since saturday night and he did call me as I was on the bus home, I'll still wait a few days or so. I mean not everytime I go out do I want to get drunk, like him. And when I say no or want to go home i've "changed" and I'm "no fun" and "different." Eh whatever.

Saw luigi for a little bit afterwork last night. Told him about Texas, although he already heard from dan and seemed a little disappointed that I haven't told him yet, I said I wanted to tell him in person but he didn't c are about that. So anyway I leave Foleys around 1215am and catch the train and get into Harvard at 1235am. So I figured I'll end up catching the last 71 bus home around 1am. Well last bus indeed, except they (as yes they, you'll see why in a second) didn't show up until 120am. They I was talking about is all the buses. All the buses, the final one for each line, come rolling down the ramp and take their place and wait for about 5 mins before taking off. It is kind of funny and cool and would of enjoyed it more if I hadn't been waiting for 45 minutes. Got home at 130am, in bed by 2am and woke up little late this morning.

Man I love to ramble.

Marcel gave me the info for the sign I told him I could make up for him and as I sit writing this mike and patty are fighting over the idea of buying a loft. Its kind of funny. The thing is I really don't see Erica and I fighting over stuff they do. Granted we will have small fights, but I don't know. They seem to fight over everything.


Jonathan Niese pitches tonight! I'm excited! This kid is 21 and was won the day the Mets won the 1986 world series over the Boston Red Sox. An Omen?

Wacka Wacka!

-J to the O to the N
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its been a while

michael phelps is the man. I'm watching him get his 3rd gold medal so far of these games and has a chance to win 5 more. I remember him in 04 when he won 6. So far the guy has won 9 golds in his lifetime and he is...get this...23.

I'm 23 and barely even made it out of college.

just a different path people end up taking in their lives. Sometimes I wonder what could of been for me.

its weird how much the hype of the olympics have changed over the years. I remember growing up and really being excited...in fact it seemed everyone was.

nowadays not so much. I think the biggest problem is the media. Today you can find out who wins off your cell phone. With China 12 hours ahead of us...i believe...you can log into the internet and boom, find out who wins. With tape delays, no one really cares to watch since they can't watch it live, for the most part.

Anyway, I think mike and patty are gone the whole week. I knew they were on vacation although have no idea what they are doing but I believe they both took the week off, which is nice for me if true because its kind of nice to have the place to myself to move around. Like today I did some exercise workout in the living room off On Demand, something I can't do in my room.

anyway I may head to NY this weekend, not sure yet.I'm still pretty beat from this past weekend. Getting trashed friday and really no memory of what fully happened...shots? oh boy. Mic vs Spic, and then working sunday and with the turn around...wow. i'm a little sleepy.

but there are so much little things I need to get done that I don't have time for. And a million questions, worries, thoughts, I have stored up. What does my future hold. Should I leave the Boston area for a new beginning, a new lifestyle. A new me. I think so but I'm so scared of changed and there is/so much work that needs to be done that I can't do it on my own. I wish I knew more people around the US. Part of my fear is being alone and I know I would have a hard time ajusting anywhere I go, hell I really don't even fit in here.

so years after seeing it in the movie rental store I finally watched the whole thing of cheerleader ninjas.

What the fuck is up with the mets bullpen too....jesus fucking christ I'm sick of their shit.

I need too upload some videos to youtube as well.

Oh and I'm back from texas! I had a great time. Meet some cool people, went to san antonio as well. got flagged by airport security as a terrorist. all awesome.

I'll write more later but my eyes are shutting and I think I may sleep on the couch tonight. I'm not feeling 100% great about a few things and I think I need a friend. This friend will be in form of turtle man and TV.

wacka wacka

-JSpin

Cutlery

You had time to waste

but I'm not sorry
Such a basket case
hide the cutlery
I had time to kill
It's dead and buried
You've got guts to spill
but no one's trustworthy

paid the ransom

And I open up
like the back of a book
I ruin everything
with just a quick look
And I settle down
like a rocket explodes
Hit the ground
but how far out who knows
You got a sign
so I paid the ransom
You felt sorry
so I felt the wrath come
Had a nice grip on my life
till you twisted my arm
My arm

So long Tommy B

I was going to type something else as the title when when I started to type the word "so" this phase appeared. I don't what this means or why I once typed it out.

Anyway I was going to title this piece "so I have to admit something"

The something I have to admit is that I actually really like Justin Timberlake. Not so much for his music but man to I respect him. I'm envious of him. I'm watching him host the ESPYs and he is doing a great job, I think, and its only been 45 mins.

Also where the hell did this weekend go? Its almost 10pm on this sunday. Weekend over and I felt like it didn't even start yet.

Kristen Bell is really fantastic.

Why does Zac Efron spell his name with a C instead of a K? Zak clearly is cooler than Zac. What a loser.

Posh Beckham doesn't seem to be enjoying herself or able to take a joke.

I've seen Brenden Frasier three times already. Wow.

I'll think I'll add updates to this post as I continue to watch. It is kind of fun.

**updates**

tom cruise as a narrator?

meanwhile katie is on TNT or TBS with batman begins. go katie!

danica patrick totally wants timberlake

two shots of kiefer in the past 5 minutes? Not drunk yet.

no wait number three

***updates #3***

best female athlete. I hate to say it but...candace parker? oh well

ha a joke about gambling

brenden frasier presenting? oh boy...and they give him best play? what the...

gotta go with the giants on this one...although that mississippi miracle was pretty good.

haha, nice joke my manning about the offensive line blocking no one.

****update 4****

man do they love aaron rogers. they keep showing him.

Kate Walsh looks good tonight...but at the same token, what happened to her?

best game? this should be good. NCAA final. Game 4 of the NBA Finals. Super Bowl.

Giants win...eh. I mean it was a great game and they did beat the upbeaten pats and all but you know, I was kind of rooting for the C's.

robin roberts and stuart scott...what happened to them.

...ouch. so I just learned that robin has breast cancer. I'm an ass.

kevin everett. I forgot about him. scary play. great to see him walking.

*****update 5*****

Boston Celtics win best team. But what is even better is that BRIAN SCALABRINE is there! The only white guy on the team and on stage. Its funny because with the close of of the mic and ray allen talking, who do we still drifting in the back row? Mr Scalabrine. Hahaha that was great!

good night!