Leaving

Its coming to a close.

2 more working days. Its unreal really. After its a few weeks until Texas. Hasn't hit yet.

It is weird. For once I feel like people care about me. Despite the fact that I'm torn when I tell people at work I'm leaving I feel a little sad leaving them behind. I have told certain people at work, ones I know/talk to the most and they are shocked and sad that I'm leaving. This DOES make me feel good that it seems like I'll be missed. The only funny thing is none of these people have ever wanted to hang out with me while I worked there nor do they really talk to me that much. It always seems to be me making the first attempt to start the topic. But then I tell them and they are shocked and sad. Telling me I can't go. All makes me feel special, just where was this before I decided to leave.

Although I did get invited to an after Xmas party at coogians after the BBH wraps up at 50 next Thursday. I guess Vanessa rented the whole bar, must be nice to have the money, so she invited me if I was around next week. I would go but at the same time when I went to the fenway party it was weird at first. Like most people, outside of work, didn't seem to want to hang out with me. Everyone was excited to see me there but at the same time, everyone had their own groups that didn't include me. I did get by, get drunk, and did end up having a good time. Plus I rode my bike home from fenway to 50 milk without remembering it. awesome.

So its all weird. Ryan told me today, at the last TGIUW. That he hopes I ate it down there, people treat me like crap, I can't get a job, etc. It is very nice to hear. He is saying all these things because he doesn't want me to leave. I know Dan is thinking the same, same with Beth. Nate even made it out to it and it was great to see him.

Its funny, I never really thought people would care that I would be leaving, despite the fact that I don't hang out with these people all the time or even ever or even once a month. Like Ashley had said that she will try and convince me to stay. I say to her well we don't talk much, what is the point if I stay, only to make sure that our 4 month drinks after work party happens?

I guess I never realize how much effect I may have on people...but again, I never see these people. Part is on me because I don't always come out and ask them to hang out, but at the same time, I get nothing from them in return.

well 16 more hours at 50. I'll def stop in that place the next time I hit Boston again, prob in the summer to see Steve and check in. There are a few people I'll keep in touch with either email or facebook.

Free lunch tomorrow from Jack Hurley. That will be weird because its for Steve and I but mainly for me, as Matt told Steve, because I'm leaving. That is weird because never did I think I should get a lunch. I mean I'm not special. These lunches, which probably won't be anything great not that it should be, but not for someone like me. Paul had always told me that Shawn and then Jack felt highly, for what I do, and that most of the tenants approved the job I did in the lobby, which is always nice to hear despite I feel like I'm not doing anything special and just being nice, but maybe it's the good karma or something. So we shall see what happens. One of the best parts is I believe both Paul and Phil have to come over for that 12-1pm hour to cover for us. hahaha

so much ranting and so much of the word weird.

weird.

The Month of December

12/5 - Working 3-11pm
12/6 - Helping at the Concord Museum (?)
12/8 - Dinner with Sarah (?)
12/12 - Last day of work!
12/12 - 12/14 - Weekend in Montreal (?)
12/15 - Pittsfield
12/14 - Move out (?)
12/19 - New Years/Going away party
12/20 - 16 Parker St Xmas Party
12/21 - Trash
12/22 - Pittsfield
12/24 - Xmas Eve
12/25 - Xmas
12/26...27 - Brezzy Point (?)
12/28 - New York Jets game (?)
12/29 - Boston
12/31 - Houston

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Dr Horrible's Sing-A-long Blog

So for the past three weeks I have been obsessed over this musical "mini movie"

so much that I bought the soundtrack off itunes because I NEEDED it.

Also, I'll just say it, Neil Patrick Harris is awesome. Not that its gay...because he is...so that would make me gay, but i'm not...just saying....um..,I love Kristen Bell.

ok, i'm gonna show Bad Horse.

~Laters

oh and Lets Go Rays! Yes the Fucking Tampa Bay "Devil" Rays are in the World Series!! Who knew! Phuck the Phillies!

Why don't you just let me down

So tell me what were you really looking for

Going undercover
Said you were a lover
Why don't you just let me down
When you're in your positions
I don't see inhibitions
The time has come to let your demons out

White Lights

Now she's forgiven the harms of her past
She'll take a message somewhere it will last
She fails where she fails but she's trying
And growing up fast

Echoes climbing back
What's this
Hit or miss attack
You missed it
She's got white lights on her face
From the bad days
That she just can't erase
And her sad eyes are replaced
With the new life in a beautiful place

Qdoba makes me happy

A statement like that is what makes men cry.

But I wanted to say a quick thing about qdoba. As much as I love it the Summer St. location is a little lacking in the work force. I mean they do a good job but I have two problems. One I think they didn't give me a free burrito when I was award one, although my fault too for not keeping track but they should of seen that I was due for one. The other is when I ask for a burrito they always ask what beans I want...easy enough, until 30 seconds later they ask me again.

This is why I love the Harvard one. Not only do I sort of get a kick from Harvard kids, I'm assuming they are harvard kids...young white college kids in harvard sq, making my burrito they are all pretty friendly and they have a few TVs as well. Good stuff.

I'm avoiding dan for a while. after saturday night of me "bailing" I figure it culd be the best to let some time pass. although I haven't talked to him since saturday night and he did call me as I was on the bus home, I'll still wait a few days or so. I mean not everytime I go out do I want to get drunk, like him. And when I say no or want to go home i've "changed" and I'm "no fun" and "different." Eh whatever.

Saw luigi for a little bit afterwork last night. Told him about Texas, although he already heard from dan and seemed a little disappointed that I haven't told him yet, I said I wanted to tell him in person but he didn't c are about that. So anyway I leave Foleys around 1215am and catch the train and get into Harvard at 1235am. So I figured I'll end up catching the last 71 bus home around 1am. Well last bus indeed, except they (as yes they, you'll see why in a second) didn't show up until 120am. They I was talking about is all the buses. All the buses, the final one for each line, come rolling down the ramp and take their place and wait for about 5 mins before taking off. It is kind of funny and cool and would of enjoyed it more if I hadn't been waiting for 45 minutes. Got home at 130am, in bed by 2am and woke up little late this morning.

Man I love to ramble.

Marcel gave me the info for the sign I told him I could make up for him and as I sit writing this mike and patty are fighting over the idea of buying a loft. Its kind of funny. The thing is I really don't see Erica and I fighting over stuff they do. Granted we will have small fights, but I don't know. They seem to fight over everything.


Jonathan Niese pitches tonight! I'm excited! This kid is 21 and was won the day the Mets won the 1986 world series over the Boston Red Sox. An Omen?

Wacka Wacka!

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